Thursday, September 21, 2006
it's been days since i last blogged once again... oh well, im proud to announce that IMF's finally over! wheeeee!!!!
im looking forward to my bed later! i'm so happy! please let me rest... and rest til the time doesn't run out... oh well, that's so impossible can? haha! dream on jenn! yeah, pretty much, i would love to dream big, dream silly, dream... blah blah... it's good to have dreams! let your imagination run wild... =D that's what i call dreams!
i just bought this book..."the rules of life". somehow it's got something to do with psychology stuff. i mean i love it. somehow, agree with things they mention in there. i've got lots to learn!
anyway, dayang (my supervisor) and i had a good talk yesterday! im so happy i thrashed things out with her. although, ayu and hairi told me that there're some things that she just wouldn't accept and hates it when people comment on it. im sorry, but i have to. apparently you know what? she's got a character just like that bitch... damn! what a supervisor. now what? we've got to be hypocritical! sighs... ayu said she'd suffered so much over the past 2 years that she wanted to resign already. thank God she didn't! now babe, you've got us! cheer up! we're happy as a team, looking forward to work on days whereby dayang's not around. i mean, we play hard, we work hard as well! that's how strong out bond is right now.
hairi's our (ayu and my) best friend! haha! put it this way, he knows how to cool us girls down when we're really pissed. now we depend on each other so much. working just isn't fun without any one of us. but we're learning to cope.
dayang, im afraid you've got a sad sad life to meet. why have affair with someone who's married and you're married as well? why make things complicated? why put me in trouble? i nearly ended up like Charm (one of the gro's @ shang) why must i find out the truth from others? why must you be so hypocritical? why must you get jealous? why must he get jealous too? im sorry, i've got so many whys... but it nearly got me into trouble.
i thought moving on, into a new workplace, things will get better with a smaller team. but it didn't. cos it takes only one person to destroy all. and that person has to be my supervisor. why when ayu got engaged you could gave all the well wishes and behind her, mentioned that she'll not last til she gets married?
there's too many happenings, now that i found out. now i've got to be hypocritical. ayu says we HAVE to. i believe we don't have to. im tired of pleasing people when my work already requires me to do that. im not gonna do it.
ayu and hairi was shocked when i thrashed things out with dayang. im sorry, but im direct. i gotta let her know she makes mistakes too. as much as she's gonna pin me down. we're humans. it's a whole lot of story that im lazy to say it out.
anyway, catherine offered me to go back to the hotel. i'll consider about it, catherine. thanks for your concern and all. i appreciate it. but airport seems to be the best place as of now til i complete my degree. i guess i would wanna go back to the hotel when i graduate. i wanna learn so much more. but then again, i might not be in s'pore already. oh well... let it flow naturally.
by the way, im holding my birthday party on saturday, 30th sept @ pasir ris chalet. details will be updated again. i didn't quite want this... it was my parents idea. they insisted on having it. oh well... it's only 21st birthday. i don't know how much it means to them, but it seems normal to me. oh well... since you guys insisted, i'll let it be. follow and respect the elderly.. haha! =P
alrighty, i guess i needa go sleep soon... and im dreaming of my dopod phone! im waiting for andy's line! argh! maybe tomorrow im gonna get the N6280 for the student plan! heee! good night diary...
posted by Jenn Tan @ 3:00 PM
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
well, it's another blog of the day, in fact, it's past midnight, so it's another brand new day! haha!
working today was good... i guess... everything seems well. i received a $50 tips for doing departure guest! i remember them! it's Mr. Uppstrom! i did his arrival together with his wife. no wonder i find his name so familiar when i saw his name for departure. anyway, he gave me a cheeky smile when he saw me. gees... his wife is a hongkee actually, so i just spoke to the wife in cantonese. she's nice but a little stuck up. they're staying in london actually. he stays @ valley wing...
then... I did arrival for Mr Dattels. he's actually the advisor for the Kuok Family. By the way, the Kuoks owns the Shangri-la. so yah... my VIP... he gave me US$10. haha! so it's actually my tipping day today! im in luck! =D Valley wing guest again!
in fact, yesterday i did an arrival VIP. he's from UOB. Mr. Khoo Eng Min. I still remember his name. haha! he's a Mr. Nice Uncle. haha! =P but he likes to keep close to me. I felt a little uncomfortable initially. well, as long as he's not like Latief Rennier... he touched Ayu's butt! gees! what a thing! then i start to think, what's up with guests nowadays?! getting cheeky eh? Horizon guest...
i still recall one of the guests from FORBES. he was like so cheeky also, communicating with me in a cheeky smile. haha! these people actually have no evil intention, perhaps just the way they speak. being in the hotel industry does have lots of happenings. Valley wing guest...
oh! Mr. Mullentine is back! hehe! but i wasn't doing his flight. =( i saw him though! he's like a GOODY GRANDPA! haha! i like him. when you see him, he's like a great grandpa kinda guy. haha! lots of regular guests we have actually. i don't quite remember them. he stays @ valley wing...
Dr. Chipman was back the other day. you know him? Yeah, Dr. John Chipman, the decision maker for IISS. he's alright, doesn't like to talk much. but nice guy... hehe! Valley wing guest...
I saw Dr. Wellershoff today as well! hehe! he travelled back with Mr. Pu. haha! Mr. Pu was sharing with me his stories about them traveling from Manila to HongKong. and how tight the security was. He then asked..."do you know what day was yesterday that the security was so tight?" i looked @ my watch... "oh! yesterday was sept 11 right?" then we started laughing. Dr. Wellershoff likes to smile. =) soon after they got busy with their mobiles. as usual, these businessmen. sent them off to horizon and tower! =)
anyway, gonna save up those cash! it's a day's pay... save it up for my bills. haha! and i can't wait for my bank account to increase from my next pay day... which is like... maybe another 3 weeks from now or rather 2 and a half weeks? wheee! in fact, i didn't really spend anything this month. just a little bit more on food. that's all. =)
ever wondered why some have to travel around the world to meet someone who'll in turn be their life partner? while some don't? when you meet someone who has exactly been through what you had, you've got so much in common, yet so afraid that, when you guys argue, it'll turn out real bad. cos you think alike? you stood so firm on your grounds.
every relationship has it's own problem. being similar in a high spirit and carrying pride may land us both in a very competitive and high expectation. however, we want to understand each other more and should we ever argue, keep it low and discuss about it carefully cos we know we can't afford to lose our loved ones. they're precious to us and you'll wish you can make it through together with understand, give and take.
in fact, how nice it is to share lives. =) i appreciate that. sometimes, i enjoy slient moments.
it's amazing how you can speak right through my heart
without saying a word, you can light up the dark
what i hear when you don't say a thing
the smile on your face lets me know that you need me
there's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
the touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever i fall
you say it best, when you say nothing at all...
all day long, i can hear people talking out loud
but when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd
what's been said between your heart and mine
isn't it familar? indeed... =) this is how it should be... to not say anything and yet the other party understands. uncle ronne told me this. you know what the other person is thinking without saying a word. it's just actions that shows it all. =) awww... how sweet.
anyway, i gotta turn in... im hungry though... i want food... sighs... i need to turn in early to wake up early for my studies
posted by Jenn Tan @ 3:42 PM
it's been a long time since i blogged eh? yeap! very much...
i miss putting my thoughts down...
as we sail through life
don't avoid storms and rough waters
just let it pass
just sail
always remember
calm seas never make skillful sailors
yes, i've been working hard these days, whatever for? for the well-being of my own future. in life, probably, we strive so hard that we don't even know til that very faithful day, would it be too late to realise? perhaps.
cos life's too unpredictable, how am i to know when will that faithful day come? i want so much in life, but my ability only allows that much. Limits, i call it.
maybe i should just free myself. sometimes, in life, you've been through so much, people just don't understand.
don't try too hard, be contended with what you have. perhaps just a few more years, i'll be tired and i'll stop trying that hard. i've neglected what's around me to strive for what i want. indeed, we can't have the best of both worlds.
anyway, all thoughts aside for a bit. just wanna share what's happening to my life these days. been busy with work as usual. trying to cope with my studies as usual. haha! i passed both my papers! woohoo! gonna work hard for final exams! this coming friday is another MA test. darn! i'm so lost for this paper. i hope i can make it though.
anyway, brian will be flying back from shanghai today! SQ825, haha! perhaps have dinner with him and go through MA with him. please help me, teacher! else im dead! hmmm... what else? in fact, days are the same. nothing much. today i should be going through my review with dayang. and be it good or bad, i'll accept it. i have to anyway, haha!
alright, i needa go bathe and study before heading to work! =)
posted by Jenn Tan @ 1:32 AM
Friday, September 01, 2006
hehe! well, finally it's my off day! wheee!
anyway, i woke up @ 11am then i went to the post office to collect the phone listing directory for dad, as i promised that i would do it on my off day.
sighs... i really wanna slap myself real hard in the head, in the face and wherever... yesterday, my every first guest gave me a $50 note as tips! just for the short transaction... like 3 to 5 mins wait. I REJECTED it! do you also feel like slapping me?! yes! and i know i made a mistake. then subsequently, all the drivers start to mobitalk to me and msg my mobile saying... are you crazy or what? reject tips... sighs... =( even dayang (my supervisor) also said i was mad! perhaps, im not used to it. cos... back @ lagoon, we never accept tips. haha! oh well... and 2 days back, my working buddy - ayuni got a $100 tips from the guest, just a short transaction like me too! and she took it. anyway she's been working with shang for 2 years. =) and she teaches me alot and we simply can't be together. reason being we turn airport into our playground = madness! i love her to bits! hehe!
i wonder when will my next $50 tips come again... sighs... =( stupid me. then vincent said "you're too honest, don't be so innocent, must learn to be naughty at times." haha! eric said "if you don't know where to put the tips, throw into my pocket la!" sylvester said "are you crazy or what? just take la!" dayang said: "jen, you spoil market la! these guests come to shang to stay, to spend their cash, they got nowhere to throw, next time, just take, don't care!" Hairi said: "eh... don't be sad ah... next time just SNATCH from the guest! haha!"
the only person who comforted me was bernie. haha! cos he said: "it's like that jen, cos you think you didn't do anything much to deserve that much. but trust me, next time you'll just take. so don't think bout this $50 anymore." but he was also laughing @ me @ the end of the day. darn!
now what? everyone's saying that im mad. alright! i will remember to take it next time okay?! I PROMISE I WILL! AND I WILL SNATCH FROM THE GUEST NEXT TIME AS INSTRUCTED BY HAIRI! haha!
now enough of the tips. the more i say, the more upset i am with myself. okay... hotel industry can take tips... lagoon sucks! haha!=P
anyway, i had a short and nice chat with john yesterday night too! he saw me online and he prompted me. John's my asst. supervisor back in DL! hehe! i miss him and he said ah neh and him gonna come find me someday. =) after imf month, john. hehe! we bitched and he's so funny... he apologised: "im sorry jen, i couldn't help you much when you were @ DL." hey john, don't worry man, i don't need anyone to help me. just needed people to trust. but anyway, i have my friends. so absolutely no worries! hehe! thanks anyway, and you still remember me for who i am and what i am. so im thankful already. we all know who are the losers yah? but john, bear in mind what i told you... please no matter what, try to stay put and keep your position in place. don't let that bitch take over your place! she sucks! and we all see that she's getting into alot of trouble now... im not really happy bout it, but i feel sad for you. cos, she thinks she rules. sadly, we didn't even get into any problems, she did and tonnes of it. now she feels insulted about her integrity eh? i told you... she'll get double or even more of what she did to me. im still waiting for more to come.
anyway, enough of it also... tonight going back shang for dinner @ the line! wheee! yeah yeah yeah! hehe! i can't wait! i miss my friends @ the hotel! haha! =) im gonna study today and sleep more! study & sleep and music!
imf's coming... forbes's coming... im so dead. work hard darling girl! you can do it!
she knows when im lonesome
she cries when im sad
she's up in the good times
she's down in the bad
whenever im discouraged
she knows just what to do
but girl... she doesn't know about you
i can tell her my troubles
she makes them all seems right
i can make up excuses
not to hold her at night
we can talk of tomorrow
i'll tell her things that i wanna do
but girl... how can i tell her about you
please tell me what do
everything seems right whenever im with you
so won't you tell, how to tell her about you...
how can i tell her i don't miss her
whenever im away
how can i say, it's you i think of
every single night and day
but when it is easy
telling someone we're different
help me tell her about you
this song is so nice...
posted by Jenn Tan @ 4:24 AM
