Monday, January 30, 2006
weeee! happy CNY people! decided to blog early cos tonight i might not be home tonight as well! haha! it's play time! yawns! it's a sunday but doesn't really feel like one.
i witnessed an accident just now... oh man. the motorist died. covered with plastic. i bet he's a chinese. cos i saw those kinda red paper bag that you would carry around with mandarin oranges in there. it was on the road. the helmet was so far apart from the body and the cover of the motorbike's box was even further away from the helmet. so what do you think? oh man... God bless... sighs... the person who knocked him down or the motorbike went to knock into him... whatever... also quite down with luck. oh man. it's the first day of the CNY.
elaine is back with amos, all cousins have grown older. how nice... =) im growing older too... how bad... =( haha! anyway, wish you guys a Happy CNY! enjoy yourselves people!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 6:11 AM
Sunday, January 29, 2006
weee!! reunion dinner is finally over! gotten my red packets from bro and dad... short of 2 more... haha! waiting patiently... 1st bro and mum! haha!
dinner was good... so happy this year... mopped the floor and done the necessary. just now wanted to get the car from bro, but lazy to go out already. everyone's like staying home for CNY eve, so i shall be good also. stay home and welcome the new year. feel like eating ice cream now...
2 years back... that haagen dasz ice cream... yummy and N.Y.D.C cheesecake... if this year could be the same... hmmm... oh well... stop dreaming. this year, i didn't really shop as well. wanted to go dashing diva to get my nail polish this afternoon, but lazy to travel that far. yawns! im so tired. tomorrow going visiting at 11am! weee!!! can't wait and all the activities lined up! more hong baos! haha! =P
i really wanna sleep... so tired and i want massage on my hands! oh man, just now mopped the floor til my hands now no strength. it's trembling. too much force exerted. spastic me. oh well... how i wish shopping malls are still open just like xmas. cos im bored to death at home! argh! nothing much to do. only games and my crossword puzzle book. sighs...
Happy Chinese New Year friends and all! May you guys be prosperous this year and may all good things come forth! weeee!!! =D and I hope things will turn out fine for my final semester! work hard dear jen!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 12:57 PM
Friday, January 27, 2006
finally... ECD project is left with the toughest part... sighs... financial planning! when will everything end? actually im quite glad that we've almost completed the report portion. total of 17 pages i think. we need more pages! 25 pages is the minimum requirement! argh! hopefully can hit that target! =D
Chinese New Year is approaching! tomorrow is the eve of CNY eve! haha! confusing eh? kinda in the holiday mood now... i'm dead beat and really drained. Just had ECD test yesterday. I hope everything turns out fine!
sighs... been really tired these few days and tired easily. don't ask me why. i lose interest easily too. oh man! =S this is so bad. maybe a short holiday would be good. but i don't intend to go for one. i guess i'm looking forward more to the holiday after graduation! i've already planned out!
Tomorrow Andy and May taking half-day to come back to see Dr. Chong. May (third sis-in-law) might be pregnant! weeee!! i hope for a baby girl. not that i'm bias. the truth is more than what you think it is. I don't mind what gender it is, as long as he/she is born healthy! I just pray hard that it's a baby girl. there's more to it being just a baby girl! Please God, let it be a baby girl. i need it to be a baby girl! Anyway, it's not my baby... but it's important! some of my friends might know why though. hehe!
Tomorrow i've got performance! how nice... so long since i last danced! haha! and then off to celebrate the eve of the CNY eve! haha! crazy me! kinda... it's the holiday season, let's party! =D I wished I could... think it's gonna be another quiet CNY. I used to love CNY when I was little. I guess the atmosphere was at its peak, everything seems so exciting. I love new clothes, new shoes and everything is so great! Now that i've grown a little older... or rather, older, i don't seem to find any passion for CNY burning. Is that how everyone sees CNY when they grow older or am I the exception?
i think i need to sleep more! seriously! friends and family members are saying that my dark eye rings are getting worst! oh man! i need to prepare for the best for CNY when visiting relatives. those eye rings shall be covered! camouflage! haha! alrighty, since so, I shall go to bed! good night everyone! have a great night!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 3:37 PM
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
weee! another day has passed! tourism is finally done, thought presentation was poor, like i really care. i'm like no longer interested in that stupid module with that kinda tutor. WISP is coming to an end too! wow! time flies eh? yup!
did ECD project after school. come to think of it, we didn't really do much there. we chatted and all. i'd rather do it at home. sighs. waste of time. managed to assign some things out. meeting on thursday again. i hope to complete as soon as possible. let's enjoy CNY to the max, it's time we reward ourselves before the final exams in another month's time i think. sighs. time flies. what am i supposed to do?
anyway, went lunch at silkroad, then went to get a bottle of nail polish from dashing diva! such a nice and elegant manicure boutique... it satisfies me! the range of colors and outlay! mama mia!
anyways, came home and painted my nails! weee! that makes me really happy now! haha! but am going to turn in real soon. im dead beat already.
posted by Jenn Tan @ 3:02 PM
Monday, January 23, 2006
well oh well another day has passed. went for my dance practice. it's been some time since i last saw them! weee!!
oh well... aunty yvonne wasn't feeling well. felt numbness and all, thus after my dance practice, rushed her to the hospital. sadly, everyone blamed hongxu for that happening. but what simon said was right, it was partially aunty yvonne's fault for being so lenient at times. anyway, she suffered from stress. remember the panic attack i got? mine was worst off. all she needs to do is just to rest.
went dinner. we talked about friendship. ya... as much as i dislike that person. he still hold a special place in their hearts. it's alvin im talking about. simon said whoever's gf will definitely hate him. but he's nice as a friend, maybe not that trustworthy. life without him as a friend is as though they missed out some things. perhaps that's what jun xiang is all about. a friend of whom i would find life boring without him. but can't trust him as much i guess. in fact, not much people can be trusthworthy. sorry jun xiang, but it's somehow true. they said alvin will know how to please parents and whatever. but does it even matter?
simon's dad's health is getting worst. what do you expect a person who has gone through 16 years of kidney dialysis to be? well jen, it's time you learn to treasure things around you. they asked about my parents. sadly, not on good terms. it's a known fact and i'm not shy to share.
aunty yvonne gave me new year goodies! weee! haha! without fail, each festive season, this aunt of mine would bake cookies for me! yummy! it still taste as good! thank you aunt! i wonder how this CNY will turn out to be. sighs. nothing much to enjoy i guess. projects are all due and what crap we have here. i wished i can graduate soon...
alright, i gotta go rest for a bit! good night diary and thank God for each day!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 3:09 PM
Friday, January 20, 2006
weee!!! another day has passed! skipped audit lecture after company law. haha!
i was feeling so dead tired! oh man! sleep tight jen... gees... woke up and did some printing. and rushing tourism project. oh man! so much things to do.
projects after projects, presentations after presentations. gees... what's wrong? this semester just passed by so quickly that i don't even know what am i studying! so much things! please give us a break! it's the last semester! but i doubt that stupid school will do so. anyway, i passed the second paper that i got back and that's audit. weeee... just made it also! oh man, i just made it for almost all my papers! whatever, as long as i pass. didn't really study much. don't expect too much alright, jen. anyway, company law is completed! =D how nice! just have to edit a little bit and we're almost done! =D simplicity is good! all the best the rest of the groups in my class!
slacking at home is one of the nicest thing to do! weeee!! =) tomorrow's friday! but weekends gotta work. =( sleepyhead kicks in again! im kinda losing appetite these few days. =S i see food as a necessity instead of enjoyment now... how sad. i don't even eat much these days! whatever... i just need to rest and rest more!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 1:26 PM
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
weeee!! another day has passed! oh man, i realised i've been sleeping real late recently... sighs. it's time i learn to turn in early. i tried. but everyday, we're so tied up with projects and stuff. teach me to turn in early dudes. i wished i could!
did c-law project today and got back the exam paper too! weee!! i passed c-law! how nice... haha! though it was only a marginal pass, at least i didn't fail. hehe! so much to do... yawns! had my curry udon today! slurp! simply delicious!
tomorrow should be getting back audit paper... sighs. wonder how will i do... =S whatever. as long as i don't fail. hate retests! who loves them? gees... haha! spastic here.
tomorrow need to stay back to do c-law project again. my group is planning to complete it by tomorrow. i hope we really can complete though. yawns. im so tired. after c-law would be ECD. oh man! im dead beat by then. still have tourism to do.
people in my class are so competitive. what's their problem?! sometimes, being competitive is one thing, but competitive to the extent that they would pull others' grades is not a good one. poly ain't a nice place to be. after 3 years of experience. have you ever gained true friends along the way? answer is NO. a firm one. so far, the only person that i can really trust is Lawrence. my greatest buddy in poly. i miss high school where friends are there for you. crapping and all those things. we helped each other back then and we still do. i remembered on one occassion whereby i had a relationship problem, my friends(guys and girls) and i gathered at coffee bean at bishan and we chatted for so long. like 10 of us. this is what i call friendship. and we still are there for each other. everything is just a facade in poly.
well, enough of those poly life. i just wanna get out of it. it's an unreal world.
good night.
posted by Jenn Tan @ 4:37 PM
Monday, January 16, 2006
weeee! it's been days since i last blogged again... oh well, don't blame me for it. blame it on the amount of projects i have on hand. blame it on e-learning week. blame it on the workload that the tutors gave. sighs.
it's as though i haven't been in school for classes for almost a month!! how cool that is! i can't imagine that! how i wish it'll forever be that way! dream on jen! *smack on the head*
i haven't really done any new year shopping yet! sighs. =( WISP presentation is tomorrow!! i hope everything goes on fine though. we're going to act as though we're presenting tourism on the 2nd week! haha!
MA project has been completed!! AFA too!! i'm so glad! *smiles* now concentrate on ECD and company law! argh! i'm so irritated with company law! so many facts! what the heck?! do you even really understand the case?! gees... *scratch head*
daddy has been falling down so much recently. im kinda affected. i hope he stops falling down. =( well, we all know that a stroke patient can't be any much stronger. i still hold on to the faith that someday, he'll be strong again.
drove to mt. faber yesterday... the view was WOW! no words can describe! such a relaxing place! nice breeze, nice view... everything seems perfect!
Simon said i put on weight on my face! what the heck?! but why some say that i've lost weight? so what do i need to do exactly? to put on some more weight or to lose some more weight? people, make up your mind and tell me the truth!
been doing housework these few days! weeee! im not that kinda princess that doesn't do any housework alright! haha! packed my cupboard and wardrobe! wee!! it's clean! washed the bedsheet! helped daddy with the curtains! cleaned the floor! dead beat at the end of the day! =S my whole body is aching like mad now! argh!
printed some notes in the afternoon and whatever tutorials that my classmates posted. oh my. i don't even know what did i do for the past one week?! i didn't even read the notes after printing! this is crazy! pure crazyness! i don't quite love e-learning except for not going to school! i don't learn things for nuts during e-learning. oh well. im starting to slack now!
so tired... yawns! im typing in the dark. am i crazy... just listening to songs. currently playing on itunes - held by natalie grant. it's a meaningful song.
i suddenly miss japanese curry udon. yummy! movies that i wanna catch!
Proof - about a daughter who has great relationship with her dad who's a genius. the show is nice from the trailer that i saw.
the family stone - some comedy for xmas. should have caught it the other time.
wallace and gromit! - weee!! some animation. you should catch it too!
in her shoes - i wished i had that much shoes too! haha!
pride and prejudice - wanted to watch this since the start of december. *faints* now it's like towards the mid of jan and still i haven't watched it!
oh well... shall wait and see how. yawns! im so tired... time to rest a little.
posted by Jenn Tan @ 11:17 AM
Saturday, January 14, 2006
today no lectures and tutorials! how nice! i stayed home the whole day just cleaing 2 rooms! and i'm dead beat already!
man, i feel sick once again. looks like im always sick. oh well! whatever! argh! anyway, it's gonna be a relaxing night i hope...
frankie (zhu zhu's dog) was put to sleep yesterday afternoon. i felt kinda sad. i don't know. even though frankie and i didn't play much. but i still got affected. oh man. i love dogs, put it this way. zhu zhu... don't be so sad k...
hmmm... working tomorrow! i guess i'll be sleeping early tonight! soooo drained out! and so little time yet so much to do! argh! is that life? oh well... not that i know of...
yawns! gonna go bathe and relax a little and fall asleep perhaps? cos i'm so tired!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 11:08 AM
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Your face is beaming
you say it's cos you're dreaming of how it's going to be
You say you've been around
And now you've finally found
Everything you wanted and needed in Me
I don't have the heart to hurt you
It's the last thing I wanna do
But I don't have the heart to Love You
Not in the way you want me to
Inside I'm dying, To see you crying
How can I make you understand
I care about you, so much about you
I'm trying to say this as gently as I can
You're so trusted and open
Open that Love will start
But I don't have the heart... to Love You
Not in the way you want me to...
I don't have the heart...To Hurt You
There's still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
There's still a little of you lays in my doubts
There's still a little heart to say... what's going on
There's still a little bit of your goals, your weakness
There's still a little bit of your face I've yet to kiss
You step a little closer each day
Stones, it taught me to fly
Love, it taught me to lie
Life, it taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall...
There's still a little bit of your sound in my ears
There's still a little bit of your words I wanna hear
Come on Courage, teach me to be shy
I don't wanna scare anyone
I don't wanna lose, it's not hard to grow...
You know, it's just... don't know...
What silly thoughts and words... Cos I've got nothing more to blog. After lunch, the moment i walked out of the gate, I knew immediately where to go. Went to walk around, listening to my MP3. Rainy weather, sounds like Lonely Christmas, but I enjoyed myself. Some days, I just feel distraction. To run away from the crowd, to listen nothing but to yourself. To know nobody, but yourself. That's life...
posted by Jenn Tan @ 12:56 PM
Monday, January 09, 2006
sighs... the day passed by just like that... the whole day, i've been so busy with projects.
went back to school this morning to complete my WISP project. and finally! we completed! Kinda love my groupmates! haha! had macdonalds for lunch or rather tea break at 3pm! haha! we gathered around the table, kinda felt the bond. my team-mates are great people, fun to be with and crappy! left over sauces but clean ones, victor came up with his stupid idea of playing the game "zhong ji mi ma"! awww!! 4 packets of tomatoes, 2 packets of chilli, 1 curry sauce and 1 BBQ sauce! ewwww!! disgusting! but you eat one packet at a time!
then went on to do our WISP project on Pol Pot... he's such a disgusting fellow i think... marxism... whatever you call it!
tourism project is almost done! weee!! all thanks to yanli! infact she kinda completed the whole project! Woww! thanks babe! although she won't get to see this thanks! haha! Lawrence and
I only had to come up with a few more days' itinerary and that was all. i printed all the stuff.
printed newsbyte sharing for my WISP group... had to go through the slides once again and do some more research. sighs... the whole sunday is just gone like that. thought i could attend church today. oh well...
went bishan for a while for a drink. went to popular to get a crossword puzzle book. thought i was bored enough to actually thought of that! haha! nah, just suddenly wanted to do that! it's been ages since i touched those kinda books! i felt just like a kid. whatever you may address me as! haha! =) home sweet home and busy with projects.
good night diary, gotta go continue with my projects! hope everything goes well tomorrow!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 1:48 PM
Saturday, January 07, 2006
Weeee!!!! exams are finally over! weeee!!! today was Audit paper! sucky man! I thought inventory will definitely come out! oh shity! it didn't! argh! came out some accounts payable stuff! *faints*
Anyway, after exams, went sushi buffet with weizhong, vivian, junxiang and vivian! Yummy! I think vivian will avoid crab meat for a month! haha! I had too much i think... no more japanese food for the time being! haha! something else please!
then met up zhu zhu for dinner! but i was too full to even eat! then we walked around for a while, went to suntec's topshop! weee!!! it's been like 3 weeks since i shopped? oh ya! Finally, today i got something! weee!! I'm like so tired now! Seems like so many days since i last slept?! oh man! the exams! killing me! =( now it's those projects! can i get something better?
ok... while typing this blog.. a super huge dragonfly came into my room! oh goodness! I've never seen such a big one before you know?! argh.. ok, i need to go!!!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 2:50 PM
Friday, January 06, 2006
weee!!! 3/4 of the battle... tomorrow's the last paper! kinda afraid too! it's audit... oh man! it seems easy yet lots of things to memorise and study... why can't you just let me relax?
today's MA paper... it was terrible i guess... down with spastic fever, flu and what else? mental block. sick, can't think. what do you expect me to do? sighs... i just wanna pass, that's all i ask for. I've done my best and God will do the rest. sighs...
alrighty... i'm kinda tired, yet can't really sleep... life's like that... i need to sleep! i don't wanna fall sick (i'm already sick, what am i talking about?!) Can't wait for tomorrow, 3pm! quick quick! papers over! enjoyment!
gotta go! ciaos diary!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 1:29 PM
Thursday, January 05, 2006
sighs... another paper down!!! but... i don't think i really did that well for company law! oh sucky! it's like i gave away 8 marks... so Gopalan, i've only got 12 more marks for you to deduct... please be lenient... =(
anyway, half the battle gone! i'm fighting towards the 3/4 tomorrow! and I'm so afriad! it's Managerial accounting... I'm going to die real flat! oh my... what am i going to do?! argh!!! I'm quite demoralised actually... when everyone's so confident about the paper and all... yet, i'm like struggling... sucky feeling... oh well... look forward, like what my friend always say... this common test just ain't that good after all eh?
still have got projects to rush after exams!!! argh! I can't even breathe! oh man! I think i'll be superwoman straight after this semester! woohoo!! Not enough sleep, projects to rush, exams to study! super packed! I can't wait to graduate! please let me graduate on time! I need to breathe real well! haha!
time flies! I can't wait! please let me graduate! dying... can't wait for saturday to get back to work and of cos... sunday to church! weee!!! book of Revelation!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 1:18 PM
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
oh well... one paper down! Advance Financial Accounting gone! weee!!! sighs... first question cannot balance la! spastic! argh!! Cash flow statement can balance though... but i supposed there'll be mistakes... sighs... oh well, paper's over, don't think about it! 3 more papers! move on Jen...
Company Law at 0830hrs tomorrow! All ready? not really... oh shity... I'm like not ready for all papers! what's wrong?! I don't know man... sighs... I just wish for everything to be over and I'm freaking falling sick! So sick... ahhhh... God, please help me!!!
Gotta go study! Weeee!!!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 1:49 PM
Monday, January 02, 2006
i just came back from church...
i woke up at 1pm and slack around and guess what? common test is just 2 days away and i'm still slacking away! Oh please... jen... argh! this is SO bad but i can't help it!
Pastor Rony went through the Book of Revelation today...
He told us this story... He went coffee with a friend one day, and his friend was cursing and swearing against the kid who has broke his vase. and Pastor Rony asked his friend, "how much is your vase?" He replied "$500++" and Pastor Rony went on to tell his friend, "you could easily earn a vase tomorrow, or anytime you want. But not your child and your child is only worth less than $500++?"
Pastor Rony said..."Your child can remember that you cursed and swear at him for breaking a vase. He remembers everything you say about him." It reminds me of my mum. For that photo incident. I remember every single thing she said to me.
What you hear and what you see part...
I suddenly recall of my project mates... Claire and Christopher... what you hear... You know certain a time people just don't get what you mean. What you're trying to tell them and what they want to hear and see... Well, it so happens. It was nice to see them working well together after that thrashing thing we had. I'm happy.
Never remember God as someone who has died on a Cross... but someone who has risent til today! He took my sins... Because he bears all our illness and whatever defects we had, we are what we are today! How Great is that! =)
How many of us actually say we love our parents, we treasure our loved ones but in actual fact, do we really love them? Pastor Rony quoted this..."You treat a stranger better than your loved ones." Then I recall Lawrence's incident. When a stranger asked for direction..."Sir, may I know where's the supermarket?" and you reply,"oh yes, let me bring you there." but when your loved ones, maybe your mum or dad asked you "have you taken your meal?" Your reply would be "ahhh ya ya... (in a rude manner)" yet we say we love our parents, we treasure them. It somehow hit me a little... cos I've done that. Do I really love my parents as much as I really say I do? It makes me wonder... Maybe not to that extent yet. I think I've made a mistake, a mistake thinking that your loved ones will understand you and bear everything that you do. Just like Lawrence and Xueting. For Lawrence shouting at Xueting sometimes, doesn't really mean that Xueting has to understand him and give in and bear the temper. I've been through that phrase. I know it. Don't pin such high hopes on your loved ones. They need space and air to breathe. They are like us, Humans. With feelings. Pastor Rony said..."Give more Love" and I will learn that way. My loved ones... they've been too patient with me. I appreciate them and that is a bonus given to me.
In the book of Hebrews 4:15 - "For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are - yet without sin." I simply love this verse that Pastor Rony preached today! Jesus was like us! He was tempted in EVERY way, just like we are! Someone asked Pastor Rony this question: "Was Jesus tempted sexually?" Pastor Rony replied, "Yes, he was! Jesus, who has been tempted in every way, just as we are! But how is it that he can be a person without sin, yet we can't? We can be if we want to! That's was mentioned too! He said not to hate anyone... We all have to learn that way.
Tonight has been fulfilling! Good night Diary! And have a Blessed 2006! A new beginning and a new journey in my life!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 2:54 PM
Sunday, January 01, 2006
weee!!! it's new year's eve!
i bet all of you are awaiting the new year to come! 2006.. finally... years have gone by so quickly... for the past 20 years, i've not really made any achievements have i?
all i wanna do is just to graduate on time. i'm quite tired of schooling. yesterday met up with danny... he just came back for holidays from australia.
he told me that many people in australia, take a break then go back for their degrees... maybe i should just go likewise.
my new year resolution:
- to earn lots of money (everybody wants that isn't it?)
- travel to at least 2 countries! (it's been some time since i relaxed)
- my diving and wakeboarding!! (they're all waiting for me! my marine life and ski boat!)
- a new job in service industry (stayed at lagoon for too long a time! a change in environment should be good! and that's if i graduate on time!)
- bring myself back to God once again...(I've backslided too much that i don't even know my identity. I lost it once again.)
I guess that would be all as of now... will add it to the list if there's some more that I think of! Everything seems fresh! i can't wait to countdown to Year 2006! Happy New Year everyone! and I think I'm still in the festive season mood that I don't even know what am I studying! It's all killing my studying mood! Family dinner tonight!!! weee!!! May all my loved ones be blessed with a successful year ahead! and remain in the pink of health always! =)
posted by Jenn Tan @ 5:40 AM
