Saturday, December 31, 2005
i dream i went to heaven
you were there with me
we walked upon the streets of gold
beside the crystal sea
we heard the angels singing
and someone called your name
i turned and saw this young man
and he was smiling as he came
he said "friend, you may not know me now. then he said but wait. you used to teach my sunday school when i was only eight. every week you would say a prayer before the class would start. one day when you said that prayer. i asked Jesus in my heart... thank you for giving to the Lord. i have a life that was changed. I'm so glad you gave."
then another man stood before you and said remember the time. a missionary came to your church. these pictures made you cried. you didn't have much money but you gave it anyway. and Jesus took what you gave and that's why i'm here today.
one by one, they came. for as the eye could see. each live somehow touched by your generousity. little things that you've done, sacrifices made. i know on this earth, in heaven now proclaim. i know i'm in heaven and not suppose to cry. i am almost sure there were tears in your eyes. as Jesus took your hand, you stood before the Lord. You said, look around you, for great is your reward. I am your life that was changed.
Somehow... this song has set me thinking about me and God. I've backslided too much... but he changed my life. He promised to remain faithful and he did and he still is. =) I just want to be who I was. Let me be like who You are.
posted by Jenn Tan @ 1:06 PM
Friday, December 30, 2005
well... another day has passed... what progress have i made? nothing much really... sighs...
went out for a bit... just feeling a little tired there... sighs...
supposed to go wake boarding course tomorrow... but sighs... gave that idea up...
and of all things... today i went out and i forgot my wallet! can you believe it?! haha! what a blunder i've made!
i'm so tired that i don't know what to blog... =S actually, nothing much happened. i guess i just wanna sleep...
Good night!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 3:01 PM
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Had to attend AFA lecture... it's kinda a waste of time. I'm serious... sighs... it's just going through the test papers... oh crap! common test!!! aghhhh!! nightmare! I still haven't really started... can't get myself to sit down and study! so many distractions!!
went out for supper... kinda last minute planning...
went with lawrence, weizhong, zhu zhu and kyn! first time! weee! was so excited about the whole thing even though it's just a supper! haha! went to bedok 85... yummy...
then you know what?! they got a summon ticket! oh crap! sorry people! shouldn't have parked there... gees! this is real bad!
anyway, went back home... and i was dead tired already... the bed was calling me so badly!! gees... i need to sleep... went to sleep...
Good night diary...
posted by Jenn Tan @ 7:03 PM
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
what a boxing day! Weee!!!
Happy thanksgiving day too! Well, didn't meet up with my gfs... one of them was ill... so i didn't really wanna go... anyway, spent my whole day slacking! what a thing! Common test is next week... yes Jen... you've been repeating that... argh!!!
went dinner with zhu zhu at bishan... went to cartel... yum yum... let me tell you how much i've gained for these 2 weeks!!! actually, i don't even know...!!! haha! just feel fat that's all...
walked around... i was all prepared to shop today! but... it was such a disappointment! sighs... no nice apparels, no nice shoes, no nice... nothing!!! it sucks!
sighs... back to square one... quite irritated actually... got home now and all ready to... sleep! haha! what a pig! yes! tomorrow i've got AFA revision lecture to go alright... so i have a reason to sleep and be a pig!! weee!!! hehe!!
weiching called just now, wanted to ask me whether am i free tomorrow to go windsurf... sighs... AFA lecture! you killed everything! argh! sorry babe, can't join you for windsurfing! =( anyway, you have fun ya?
alrighty, gotta go! good night journal! ciaos!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 2:21 PM
Sunday, December 25, 2005
Merry Christmas People!!!
And to myself too!!! Well, I spent it away by staying at home! Weee! and home seems like the warmest place to be! Everyone's out there partying... While I stay home with my chips, drinks and TV programmes! Ocean 11 that is... hehe!
I had guests at my house... Little Qian Ru is soooo adorable! Her laughter is unique! She laughed like 2 seconds and stopped! haha! She doesn't love plain water as a matter of fact! Some coaxing to do! haha! May (my sis-in-law) had to keep carrying her... Andy (my 3rd brother) fed her some strawberry stuff... she loves it! yummy! Then the night fell... Christmas! But Santa didn't drop me any gifts...(cos I received them before Christmas!!) haha! Thanks for those gifts once again!!
Hope you guys have fun with your activities! Enjoy to the max!
*Words are in GREEN & RED for the xmas SeAsOn!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 4:00 PM
Saturday, December 24, 2005
yays! it's the best xmas ever! I guess!! I love you guys!!! thanks for all the gifts i received!!! All that i wanted for xmas Santa! =)
I got my limited edition adidas shirt, I got lots of chocs! I got my new wallet! I got a personalised cup! I got my watch! I got $100, I got everything that I wanted and ever needed! Looks like I've been really a good girl, Santa! Thanks!!!
Watching Narnia later with friends... what a xmas! I think it's going to be great! I love it! muahaha!! I can't study! gees... =(
Anyway, today went out with zhu zhu... she went to do her piercing... pretty cool you know! wahhaha! nice!!! then we went fish and co! yummy! can't finish though... she ordered some weird drinks... oh God! So yucky! haha! I think she hates it too!! =P
Came back home... what a trip! so tired... think i'm going to rest for a little while... yawns....
posted by Jenn Tan @ 3:02 PM
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
weee!! another day has arrived! What a day! I went to the movies with friends! watched King Kong! wee!! what a long show... from the director of Lord of the Rings.. 3 hours! and the stupid couple and i'm going to kill! sit wrong place still ask we all to hurry up... You'll have Karma some day!
anyway, after movies, we wanted to go to Mr. bean for supper... ended up at Geylang instead. Went to have beancurd and all... I drove all the way! haha! my friend allowed me to drive... must trust my driving skills! haha! then I drove to Geylang, sent vivian home and sent myself home! haha! and let me tell you... i passed a red light! I hope no camera! i think there isn't! I saw no flash... anyway, i think my driving skills aren't too bad! haha! =D i enjoy driving round... despite me not driving for such a long time... i mean i don't drive often...
i slept til 12pm this afternoon! got up and took my lunch and slacked til now! Oh God please help me... I'm losing the mood to study... I don't know what's going on!! Common tests are just like 2 weeks away to my first paper! What am I doing?! argh!! Concentrate Jen... Oh well...
hmmm... I wonder what happened to zhu zhu... she seemed a little lost there... she disappeared for so long. I hope things would be fine for her. If you've got something in mind, share with me then...
Alrighty, I guess I gotta go! And I've not done any xmas shopping yet! I'm going to die flat... so many gifts not done... or rather I'm a last minute person when it comes to shopping! oh well... that's about it... I hope for that watch... haha! Santa, are you going to fulfil my wishes? That adidas limited ed shirt & that new baby-g watch? I've been good I guess... haha! =)
posted by Jenn Tan @ 5:51 AM
Monday, December 19, 2005
Finally on a sunday... after a long day at Sentosa celebrating Xueting's birthday... it was great! hope she did enjoy herself and it'd be the most memorable birthday of her life!
Watched 2 dolphin shows, went to the beach for some sun tanning session, good lazing around... life has never been so relaxing for a long time... =)
I received my christmas present from zavier! thanks sooo much! love them to bits! =) now i'm pressurized... to get a nicer one for you... gees... but i think i can never do it! argh! I got my new wallet... my old one is right in the box... haha! I got a personalized cup! my photo and the meaning of my name! how cool! a personalized keychain too!
Hey, zavier, you must stop calling me dar already... I'm afraid later mao mi will get angry. I'm glad you've found her... lied to me that she's a good friend the other time... it's ok, i won't feel neglected! haha! *kidding* Happy that you've found her and hopes she return her love to you reciprocally!
Anyway, sighs... my project group is going to split... 2 members can't work together... is there really a point to split? what's wrong with people nowadays?
Common tests are coming! so fast! what the heck?! I don't even know what's going on and common test is here!
I'm so tired... so damn tired... I just wanna rest and wanna sleep... I wanna eat sushi though... haha! sakae sushi... yummy! anyway, I just got my new bikini from tannlines! nice! I love them! new set of bikinis! yippy!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 1:40 PM
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
who would sell their soul for love
or waste one tear on compromise
should be easy enough
to know a heartache in the skies
but the heart grows in mind
and the cold gets worst
pride takes the fall
when you find that kinda love
i can't help feeling like a fool
since i lost that place inside
where my heart knew its way
and my soul feels otherwise
there was no faith enough
still my heart held on
though beauty is enough
still we trust
somehow we'll find it there
with no guarantee
it seems to me at least
it should be fair
but it's only tears and pain
isn't it still worth the cost
like some sweet saving grace
or a river we must cross
if we don't understand
what this life is made of
we'll learn the truth
when we find that kinda love
cos when innocence is lost
do you remember the last time i said
if i ever thought of flying
i rather think of dying instead
and last time you called me to say we're through
how it took a million tears
just to prove they all were for you
but it wouldn't have made any difference
if you loved me
how could you love me
you just did not love me
in the unfaithful world
that you've always pictured me
and though i can't convince
that i was true
no one could change my world
and stop me coming home to you...
if not to look for a reason to be unhappy with me
what a long day... sighs... after lecture and tutorial, we stayed back to help out in AFA... finally it's the final week for AFA! but still have reports to write... sighs... projects doesn't seem to end eh? precisely! they don't as a matter of fact! meet up with william, have our doubts settled. went to west mall to get my printer ink! i think i should just stop printing eh? gees... took one hour to reach home... had my dinner and here i am blogging... i feel tired... wanna sleep again...
Saw Thomas outside vins today! haha! he put on weight after the Perth trip! oh well... he said the amount of meat he consumed it equivalent to his 4 days of meat consumed in Singapore! gees! but i'm sure he had great fun there! haha! how cool... wished i'm in some kinda cold country now... feel like going abroad for Christmas though...
I felt like shopping.. but lost the mood very quickly with the warm weather... i think i need to relax more... i think i don't shop as much as before! maybe it's good in a way that i can save more cash... getting lazier as days goes by... gees... exams are just round the corner eh? better not be lazy... i can't help it though! hee!
have got to present audit tomorrow too! sighs... but i'm done with my audit already! tomorrow's wednesday! finally! the mid-week... frankly, i hate wednesdays... firstly, i hate audit tutorial, which i don't understand what is the ah pek talking about! then i hate ECD too! cos i don't understand what is another ah pek talking about! gees... i feel so demoralised... damn it!
anyway... am saving up! i wanna get my N70 soon! but my contract have yet to even reach 1 year! argh! that's so long... probably by then, N70 should cost cheaper... hmmm... and my spastic N7610... everyone that calls... the name is LIZHU! zhu zhu! see ah... my phone likes you man... so irritating! something is wrong! argh! what's wrong?! and message seems to have problems too! maybe it's just reasons that i thought of to justify my decision in getting N70! haha! oh well... but these are facts! and sometimes can hang and auto shut off... enough reasons? erm... what else? let me think about it and add it to the list... haha! by the way, N70 is a pretty cool phone! my bro and sis-in-law are using it! and my friends too! i should too!
alright... i guess i've gotten what i wanna say down... and that's about it! gotta go rest a little...
posted by Jenn Tan @ 11:59 AM
Monday, December 12, 2005
it's been some time again since i blog! argh...
well, due to projects that comes non-stop, assignments that never seem to be able to finish, tutorials that comes weekly... lectures that i've skipped for the past how many days... i lost count... staying back late and having sleepless nights for projects, i'm going to crazy! argh! i just managed to take off this weekend and have a good sleep at night!
Common tests are coming eh? well... i'm pretty prepared to fail 3 papers at least... a little crazy but still... maybe this sem will be different? whatever...
i've yet to really enjoy myself... i'm tired, i'm really tired... sighs... i just wanna sleep more!
anyway, we took a Managerial Accounting Quiz last week.. it was the best quiz ever! haha! we were like exchanging answers all over! shouting across the class... it's kinda fun! If only every common tests and Final exams are like that... sighs.... dream on jen! oh well... maybe just a dream!
attended Nina's ROM yesterday... food wasn't that fantastic, so i didn't really eat. went on to send my aunt and grandma home... chatted with them for a while in the car... i'm tired... then i went to cut my hair... don't ask me what's the length, see me then you'll know.
today is a sunday and i'm back home... going out later... i'm hungry as a matter of fact... sighs... i always wake up feeling hungry! =S
alrighty! i gotta go! munch some food! ciaos!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 2:09 AM
Saturday, December 03, 2005
it's been a week since i blogged! oh my! looks like that's how busy i am! i just had my wake up bath and now sitting infront of my lappy... have got so much things to say... many things happened recently of cos...
i've moved out of my house to stay. i guess that's where i really grow up. i'm not very happy with work recently as well. i guess staying too long at one place just isn't right at all. pretty happy leading life with friends. school work has been too much to bear... projects are ongoing... just waiting for that last day...
i'm so tired... i pray... i seek...
well, even though many things happened, i shall keep my blog short and sweet... good night peeps!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 12:41 PM
